Wow. . . I use to make journals like almost weekly and now it's been months!!!! I doubt anyone really cares what I've been up to by why shouldn't I update the world? So here I am, back, well not really back because I never really left. . . I just didn't have anything I felt like typing. . . which is also a lie, but lets put it this way. . . I'm tired of seeing what I wrote in June on here and since I'm back, mentally that is, it's a good time to write a journal!

So a lot has happened in the past 4 months. . . like a hell of a lot! But lets talk about the current shit why don't we? So I'm in college!

Syracuse University!!!

It's pretty amazing. I'm a Fashion Design major. . . Well at least until the end of December. . . That's right I've already decided to change my major.

Art Photo!!!!

So I guess I will be becoming a photographer after all. . . which is fine with me because I'm not really cut out for fashion. . . And I have no passion in it, so that is a problem I guess.

So yeah, this college thing is boss. I love my dorm, and my roommate and the people I've met here so far. . . the only thing is. . . WE DON'T HAVE SCENE KIDS!!! Which makes me really sad. . . Also I live on one of the only all women's floors on campus so I have yet to make guy friends and Its already a month in! That is about lamest point of my time here, everything else is awesome!!!!

Some lyrics from Modest Mouse's song "Summer" one of many things I discovered this summer. Since I just brought up MM. . . Lets talk about them a little.

3 limited addition Vinyl CHECK
New EP "No One's First and You're Next" CHECK
Concert in Columbus the last night you're in Ohio CHECK CHECK CHECK!!!

OMG it was such an epic summer for MM. . . Like seriously. So that concert goes down as one of the best nights of my life. I went with my Brother and my new found BFF Brian. The 2 hour drive and the 40 dollar concert tickets were so worth it! Also picked my self up a MM poster that is now hang on my dorm room wall, and the one vinyl I was missing. So now I have all 3, though the one I bought at the concert is like in 2000 and my other two are 777, and 428. <_< I wish the 3rd one was under 1000.

Moving on with summer. . . The concert was my last day of it so. . . Uh lets back track!!!

So at the start of the summer I was extra depressed for some reasons I'm sure a lot of people could assume. . . Lets make it short, someone is a lying asshole and can go suck a dick. So anyways. . . Moving on, on the Fourth of July my best friend Anna (who is my brothers now ex girl friend talk about awkward)and I decided that we were lonely and needed something to do, so I text my really good school friend who just got back in town if anything was going on. He said they were gathering at a friends house and we could join if we wanted too. So after playing an epic game of volleyball at the park, and then going to Steak N' Shake afterward, and then after leaving the Steak N' Shake in tears (Boys are evil. . . ) we decided we weren't going to go because we weren't in the mood to party. So after driving out our frustrations I asked Anna a final time (because I wanted to go) and she said sure.

That party has forever changed my life.

So at this party I met this group of people just like me. People who were tired of all the lies and all the bull shit. People who were just as depressed as I was and just needed to talk. So after some more little events, hanging out with these people because a weekly ritual, and this ritual of Volleyball at Winton Woods, then swinging and talking about our fucked up lives, and the going to Sonic, became more of a philosophy on life.

TRANSPARENCY!

That's what we call it. . . Becoming transparent. Having no lies and no secrets. I tell these people everything, and have become so close to them over such a short period of time. It really is amazing. . . and through this. . . We are all a hell of a lot less depressed.

So in short, my new found BFF Brian has changed my life. . . which is awesome and I love him to death for it! Miss him a lot now that I'm 11 hours away, but still I talk to him on the phone at least once a week which is nice so I don't miss him too much.

Yeah, trying to force my self to work didn't really work so I've pretty much said fuck it. I'll draw when I want to, and photograph when I want to. It works for me. Made like 3 ATC's this summer and got 2 really amazing ones in return (I still have yet to get one from Robin). Also I have an art class now called Time Arts which is really cool so I'll be doing stuff for that. Also, next semester I may take a print making class or something cool! You can't force your work. . . otherwise you just get discouraged.

Not like anyone really cares, but I'll try to not leave you hanging so much. . . Maybe I'll try a journal a month if I have time. But I can't make promises. But regardless, I'm still here even if I don't update. ^_^